Her

"I love her so much,
it hurts."

I was never that person who picks up and maintain contacts with the people I've been with few minutes or more. I'm friendly but barely a bestie-stuff.
Then a day came when I was so stuck at this place that you can hate as well as love,
a place you want to leave as soon as possible, but you know you'll miss it.

And I met her.
(We knew each other by our Moms already.
 See!! I was stuck here just to meet her.)

She was nobody special at first, when the days went,
I knew inside her tough skin she was such a sweetheart who loathed to be known as sweet.

And I fell in love with her dance one day.
Then with her art.

Each day we got closer and closer. We were funny, goofy, crazy and the even better fact was that we had the same allies and foes! I really love her.

She is my best friend,
MY SISTER, but not by blood.

and I always felt like she would root for me at all hard times and she never failed me.

Time is always the villain.
We are about to part.
It's a farewell time.

But this person, she is my love, my starstuff
 and just like that starship's song we love,
"Nothing's gonna stop us now."

but,

I stopped trusting the future so much.

I'll miss her.
I never want to let her go.
My heart will be broken,

She was the best ever person of my life.

"And I love her so much,
it hurts..."

Smoked Heart

Everything becomes true and real when it is to it's fullest, whether it be the emotions or deeds. I've never felt any good in limiting the life, though some situations tend to oblige us to do so. The more such situations, the lesser we live. Before 7 weeks from this day, I felt like I was the happiest person on earth. Everything were going so gentle and pleasant, suddenly from the next day onwards the love of obnoxiousness showered on me. I was fitting in to a tougher dilemma, oneday everything turned to a cake and again I was allowed to float freely under the warm and bright sunlight. Then again all of a sudden I was drowned. But this time it's never like before. I let go of many great things things of and for my life. I die everyday of the regrets and gets reformed by the dreams about future. Whatever things I had to let go were unnecessary for my heart, but very much required for everyone around me now and later. But now, I indulged something which was preciously poignant. Everything and everyone else were oblivious. My heart required it, but it's gone. Painfully irrefutable. I'll be resurrected, though everything will live deep inside for it has only made me a much better person.
I'm going through hardest of times.
I haven't read for weeks and written for months. Some kind of rare pain was engulfing my heart. I feel like it is being smoked. Sometimes I don't even get the relevance of breathing. A dangerous lethargy.
Everything will get better.