You were and are everything to me. All of my earliest and happiest memories are with you. I never saw anything other than love and kindness in your eyes. Your love was the light of my life and I have wondered how can someone love anyone this profoundly.
Your love and compassion were like a fathomless ocean and its waves touched many blessed beings.
I have vivid memories of our old home. At nights, we would all sleep on the long cots laid on the red floor. You keep me close to your heart and still, when I close my eyes, I can remember the scent of your skin and your motherly hands around me. There was a broad window pane where I used to sit as a child looking at our school ground. During the beginning of summers, the migrant wanderers would occupy the ground and you would listen to my silly chatter about them patiently. We spent a lot of days together. You looked after me, fed me, sent me to school...You even wrote my homework. I can't even remember how many candies I have had with all the little amounts of pocket money you had given.
You would send Shobhavellyamma to pick me up from Anganwadi at noons and when I come back you would be making lunch by mashing the rice with curd. Achamma, I don't know how many times you fed me with your hands, the love you serve along with it made all of them the greatest meal I've ever had.
You were always my safe haven. I have heard stories of me running to you complaining about amma and aunts so that you would scold them without reasoning. Your unconditional love was beyond all kinds of reasoning. Anyday, you would know my sufferings by just a glance. My dearest, you read my heart before the words. You were my precious angel.
How many stories have you told me! On our walks to the temple in the evenings through the village road, you held my hands and told stories all the way. You always spoke to God for me during all of my tough days. Never did I go to attend an exam without your blessings. It was everything I needed.
The way you gave me pocket money secretly though the whole world knew only you could spoil me. I remember how pissed you were when I cut my hair short. All the years I lived, we were together for our favorite time of the year which is Vishu and I can't believe you left on that day this year and didn't come back.
You were a very witty person. Your curiosity to learn new things always amazed me.
Never have I ever heard you talk ill about a person. Everyone in the world loved you. You were the best mother and grandmother. If love had a face, it was yours my achamma.
Now, you look after me from heaven.
And I would miss you so much because I've never loved anyone as much as I loved you. You are everywhere around and everyone kind to me reminds me of you.
I will miss seeing your name on my call log.
I will miss all the kisses and hugs.
I will miss you saying how thin I've become though I was always fat.
I will miss you feeding me everything edible.
I will miss you telling me to dry my hair and not get sick.
I will miss your laughter when I show funny photos and videos on the phone.
I will miss you waiting for me at home, your love was home to me.
I will miss your songs.
I will miss calling you achamma with my heart full.
I will miss all our great times together.
I will miss everything about you.
You were my everything.
You were a mother, grandmother, and best friend to me.
But I know you are with me always.
You are inside my heart.
My lovely and beautiful achamma,
I love you. I love you. I love you
I love you more than anything.
I know you are watching me from the beyond. I hope you are happy and at peace over there. Be with me.
With love and more love,
Remembering you always and forever,
Yours,
Anu.
