How tiny are our lives...
My heart is so broken.
If you judge me because I write about kittens, then my friends I don't mind. A life is something so beautiful and precious and just because we humans think ourselves as the perfects and invincible beings,just should know that it takes less than 5 minutes to die of any kind of asphyxiation.
So. this. is .real .
Three days ago my aunt and Achamma(grandma) called me on phone and said, there were 3 beautiful kittens arrived at Achamma's room, they were found sleeping under the Bureau.Me and brother were so happy and too exited to see them. A white elegent mother and fully white (except grey tail), and two grey and white mixed sweet little kittens.Right at that moment we went to see them.We were overwhelmed by seeing the way those kittens were happily cuddled together.I felt like there is nothing more beautiful than this in the world, a wave of compassion hit me. Achamma said to me that having these kittens in the room makes her less lonely that all her grand children are away.It makes her heart warm seeing them and reminds her of those struggling old times when all her 6 children (my dad and aunts)were sleeping in the same bed, but in content.My brother loves kittens like anything, when i took pics of them he asked me switch of the flash and not to wake them.I put the images on my whatsapp family group. They were happy but raised many questions about the health problem it may create.But achamma just waved their questions down," whatever,I am keeping them here.". There were no more questions.
Yesterday I went to sleep over at Achamma's. I slept in her room, and adored the kittens again.My aunt had provided them warm mats and milk.I was amazed,that they were so quiet. Today morning, I woke up and again checked on them. The little guys had slowly started to walk. We adored them and filled milk in the bowl.Then, I went to my home.
My cousin with his new born baby and in-laws family were coming to see Achamma. At noon, again I went there to see the baby. The baby was taken to the room.All the family followed. The kittens were actively wandering in the room.All the guests were anxious about them hurting the baby and the irritation of them touching their feet while walking. Mother kitten wasn't there, my aunt collected all the kittens in a tub and took them to terrace upstairs. The wall of tub were too big for them, so that they couldn't escape. After few hours the guests were gone and I too returned to my home.
Now, half an hour ago, My aunt called me saying that all the kittens are dead.They were killed by some other bigger cat. She said she couldn't bear to watch the mother cat grieving and looking for her children.There was some horrible noise and aunt went up to check on the kittens.But she was late.
With my heart sinking, I thought about the trapped little souls struggling in the tub.
I skimmed through their images i taken on my phone and i couldn't stop the tears.
I can feel a fathomless hole in my heart.
