Dear reader,
This one is about the ridiculously
pathetic lame life of mine and how I rescued myself.
Once John Green had convinced me that to escape
from the labyrinth of suffering we must forgive, but I think the only way is
literally escaping or running away. Let's not indulge the labyrinth to torture
us.
It's true that some choices really shatter our
lives, but the amazing thing is anyone choice may reverse the whole 'black
hole' effect.We get to make plenty of them. Regarding our passions, giving the
right wings for our dreams is the most important choice that will matter our
whole lives.
When I was a kid, I really didn't have any
ambition and by 'kid' I mean until turning 15. Actually I had so many wishes
like becoming a vampire (I googled 'how can I become a vampire?' several
times.). Shaolin soccer wanted to catch road runner, etc. But my parents were
really ambitious about me. They had dreams.They wished If I could become a
doctor and all my studying streams were based on it.Meanwhile, I was doomed in
fiction.I read so many wonderful books and it made my childhood
remarkable.When I was in senior school and 16, I developed a dream of becoming
an author.I get writing ideas when I'm travelling, eating, bathing, sitting at
school,etc.I was obsessed over reading author's Wikipedia profiles.I was so
interested in finding out how they became a writer.The last two years of my
school life were all books and authors and good movies.I really thought it was
a challenge to create intonations of emotions in a person's mind through
words.I wondered how can i express a good old song, the moment after an amazing
movie, the moment when we finish a book series we loved from
childhood...through words.I love to try it because so many authors had done it
to me.
But suddenly life was all in turning points and
i was too slow to act. It costed me an awful year of suffering in someplace I
didn't belong.I failed my parents and my loved folks. After a turmoil of events
and lots of encouragements from my best friends like
Riya,Nikitha,Sameeksha,Aamiya and lot others, I am finally choosing the path i
love.I don't know if it's right or wrong, but I am surely going to love that
path. I am going to do honors in English literature and Journalism after years
of struggling with asphyxiating science and medical school preparations. This
feels really good and interesting that I'm going to do so much in my life in
the way I always dreamt.
I'd escaped from my labyrinth by just not
proceeding any further in it.
Whoever is reading this, I just want to tell
you that don't spoil your time doing the things you don't love or excel at.
Just act fast and get the hell out of it.
Do what you love, BELIEVE IN YOUR DREAMS AND PASSIONS.. convince your folks.
Do what you love, BELIEVE IN YOUR DREAMS AND PASSIONS.. convince your folks.
With lots of love,
Ankitha.
Ps: I couldn't join that course.
